How To Save a Life

This past day and night i've been trying to keep someone from killing themselves. They haven't responded to any call or text for close to an hour. I gave it to God, but i can't let go. I love this person, and i can't bear the pain of this. The stupid bullet they put through there head went straight through my heart. I've been crying. crying. crying. I can't see the hope in this situation. I wasn't good enough to save their life. God where are you? Why didn't you save him? And i know it was probably in your will, but right now your will has left a huge gaping hole inside of me. The only thing that fills it, is pain. So, so much pain. My body hurts and wants sleep but my mind is only wondering if i could have done more. I could have, but what? I'm so lost. I don't know what to do. I need help. Oh God, i need help. Please...someone help me. I'm falling apart.