Class Rings and Sirens

Things are becoming too hard to bear.
i just don't know if i have much more patience to spare.
I look at you and tears stream down face.
Though you don't see me i just need to be near you in this space.
Please don't fall away i need you here to stay.
Look at me like I'm something visible...please don't stray.

Right now I feel like i am at a complete impasse you know?
I just I want to feel strong like I'm not feeling left out and i like being alone...but I just can't.
I don't want to be with the popular people but I do want to not feel alone.
That's how I feel....alone. alone. alone.

alone.

That's the main emotion that has been felt the last few week.
Just give me a chance please....
Crying isn't worth it so i don't know what to do..maybe writing this will change it...or you know? maybe it won't.

Gang throw downs and Cuba.

i knew better than to be friends with your boyfriend oh, i knew better than that i knew better.
he plays the victims and i'll always be the bad guy oh i knew better than that i knew better.
so time heals everything right?
well....i dunno if it does.
i have good days....i have bad days....today is the bad....
well most of the days are bad....unless i'm with people ...then they are good...
i get lost messed up and bored when i'm alone too long...i can't leep function or eat when i'm not with someone...late last fall you ended it all and dated who know's her? just like that you vanished and packed and never will call...
yeah..gah i sound like a sap. Haha.