Hmmmm........i was reading through someones blog and i didn't realize how someone who can sit there and be hurt by people's assumptions can sit there and assume so much.....thats really all i have to say. So stop assuming drop the subject and roll along on to something else.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Just Smile.
I look at a picture of this girl.
She looked completely happy.
Just at peace with everything.
Upon looking longer i realized that it was me.
I let my emotions get so in the way all of the time.
Then i just relaxed and remembered how happy i was when i took that picture.
At that time i didn't need anyone except God.
Not you or you just him.
It's crazy that all the remorse you are feeling can be taken away by remembering a time where you could just smile without the thought something depressing.=D
She looked completely happy.
Just at peace with everything.
Upon looking longer i realized that it was me.
I let my emotions get so in the way all of the time.
Then i just relaxed and remembered how happy i was when i took that picture.
At that time i didn't need anyone except God.
Not you or you just him.
It's crazy that all the remorse you are feeling can be taken away by remembering a time where you could just smile without the thought something depressing.=D
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
First Time turned Only Time.
As hurt as i was last time i decided to go into it open minded that we were just friends.
You know what hey thats cool but then you go all BAHHHHHHHH on me.
Then i can't read you and you confuse me to the point where i go all crazy on myself.
I don't want to go in your book twice.
The First Time has now become the Only Time.
You know i thought you were someone that would always be there for me. Thats what you said right?
Well wasn't i the lucky one to figure out that i was wrong?
See like people didn't really know you were such a schemer until i spilled the beans.
Sorry but i don't want anyone else to get caught in your trap like me.
They deserve to know the truth.
Bah i mean i'm not trying to be mean but still like really learn to control your signaling like really.
But then again isn't this my fault like me the one who invited you in last time and me the one who read them in the first place? Maybe you dont even know what you are doing. Maybe i should learn that i have to be the one to assume that you don't know what you are doing so i can read them off as being something different. Like to you lets go hold hands means i want some ice cream....or maybe like kissing me would mean man i have to piss. I mean at this point it's anyones game to decide seeing where as you can't decide for your self. Well what if you know exactly what you are doing...then you should get actor of the decade award. I mean you sure fooled me that one time and then that other time.
Or maybe i over analyze to much maybe i'm the problem or maybe i don't know i wish there were less maybes and i think so's and more i know so.
I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D HAVE A FREAKING NICE DAY BECAUSE YOU CAN COUNT ON ME TOO!!!!!!!!!
honestly like i just kinda chant to myself through my teeth that i hate you.
You know what hey thats cool but then you go all BAHHHHHHHH on me.
Then i can't read you and you confuse me to the point where i go all crazy on myself.
I don't want to go in your book twice.
The First Time has now become the Only Time.
You know i thought you were someone that would always be there for me. Thats what you said right?
Well wasn't i the lucky one to figure out that i was wrong?
See like people didn't really know you were such a schemer until i spilled the beans.
Sorry but i don't want anyone else to get caught in your trap like me.
They deserve to know the truth.
Bah i mean i'm not trying to be mean but still like really learn to control your signaling like really.
But then again isn't this my fault like me the one who invited you in last time and me the one who read them in the first place? Maybe you dont even know what you are doing. Maybe i should learn that i have to be the one to assume that you don't know what you are doing so i can read them off as being something different. Like to you lets go hold hands means i want some ice cream....or maybe like kissing me would mean man i have to piss. I mean at this point it's anyones game to decide seeing where as you can't decide for your self. Well what if you know exactly what you are doing...then you should get actor of the decade award. I mean you sure fooled me that one time and then that other time.
Or maybe i over analyze to much maybe i'm the problem or maybe i don't know i wish there were less maybes and i think so's and more i know so.
I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D HAVE A FREAKING NICE DAY BECAUSE YOU CAN COUNT ON ME TOO!!!!!!!!!
honestly like i just kinda chant to myself through my teeth that i hate you.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Insufficiency.
At 2:29 a.m. i got a text saying "Excuse my blasphemy but oh my god!"
So i thought that something terrible had happened and was oh my what happened so now i was on the frantic search to find out what was wrong. Well so i got on myspace to see if they had said something on it on there and it turns out that is was about the new movie darknight. Then i was beginning to breath at that point but i started thinking. Nothing in this world is important enough to use the Lord's name in vain. Nothing at all. Nothing on this earth is as important as him. Over a movie we commit sins like lying and stealing and sometime immoral acts just see something that will give us a momentary high and make us forget about how some of our lives seem to suck. How far away from God have we gotten? To commit sins daily and call them just some of our "bad habits." It's almost inconceivable to think that God though we have gotten so far away from him that he can look at us and love us. Everyday i sin and most of the time don't think a second thought about it. This is breaking my heart that i would do that.
So i thought that something terrible had happened and was oh my what happened so now i was on the frantic search to find out what was wrong. Well so i got on myspace to see if they had said something on it on there and it turns out that is was about the new movie darknight. Then i was beginning to breath at that point but i started thinking. Nothing in this world is important enough to use the Lord's name in vain. Nothing at all. Nothing on this earth is as important as him. Over a movie we commit sins like lying and stealing and sometime immoral acts just see something that will give us a momentary high and make us forget about how some of our lives seem to suck. How far away from God have we gotten? To commit sins daily and call them just some of our "bad habits." It's almost inconceivable to think that God though we have gotten so far away from him that he can look at us and love us. Everyday i sin and most of the time don't think a second thought about it. This is breaking my heart that i would do that.
Dashboard Confessionals.
I tried to think of everything with an open mind. I had it going good trying to keep it open then thoughts of you and what happened came back and i had to shut it. I always thought that guys should never had the power to control my mind or any one else's for that matter but you have seem to have logged yourself into that position. I honestly hate getting up everyday and you being what i think of. I never have really thought with you know my mind really open and when i tried it you just made me realize that i didn't want to think with an open mind. Thanks for everything i suppose.
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