What am i?

Have you ever been so confused with yourself that it's almost to dizzying to even try to straighten things out? well thats me right at this moment. i am trying to really figure things out once and for all. but people are getting in the way of me becoming who i am. or is it that people are making me who i am? what am i, i think is the real question i am asking myself. i am a human being as far as i know. i am for God and i am thoughtful with most things i do. well if i am thoughtful with most things i do then why must i always screw up? so i am being thoughtful and i am screwing up am i imagining that i am being thoughtful with things? so am i just an imaginer? or am i ijust truly dumb and can't figure out anything on my own? i feel like i need people to help me with everything i do. but if i need help with everyone then am i just an annoying needy person that can't do anything right? and if so do i really have friends.....honestly i don't know i think that rambling helps...but hey it's seems as though my thoughts that i think are pointless so why don't i just be a vegetable.